Seasons Change

This is, by far, the best time of year where I live. The leaves are brilliant shades of red, orange, and yellow, and although those yellow leaves turn dull in a few short days and the ground becomes a bed for the many shades of fall, these are the moments I live for. The crisp… Continue reading Seasons Change

So, it’s been a while

I need to write more – I think it might be therapeutic for me. Can I just tell you that I haven’t ever been pregnant before and every day is a roller-coaster? I promise my blog will not only be about pregnancy from here on out – there is a lot going on my life… Continue reading So, it’s been a while

You may not have cake

Word prompt: Deprive: To┬ádeny (a person or place) the possession or use of something. I’ve struggled with food, body image, and restriction for most of my conscious life. As far back as I can remember, I have felt that my body is bad, that food is bad, and that to deprive myself of the things… Continue reading You may not have cake

Struggle to be

No one likes to struggle. Well, no one I’m familiar with anyway. Struggling is hard. It is uncomfortable. It means things are difficult, and possibly painful. It means sadness, melancholy, it means the darker side of life. It paints a cloudy picture of various shades of gray, where life loses passion, vibrancy and color, and… Continue reading Struggle to be

What even are goals?

It’s a funny thing, I set so many goals. Meditate every day Write every day Work out 5 times a week Do yoga Cook more Read a book for fun And then this is what happens: I meditate for 7 minutes and think about all the shit I have to do I leave for work… Continue reading What even are goals?

Exhaustion, laughter, and love

Friday was a rough day for me. I was running on approximately 3 hours of restless sleep. I felt such terrible guilt for the state of my home and the well-being of the pets I am responsible for. I was hot. I was just an emotional wreck, a ball of tears and snot and worry… Continue reading Exhaustion, laughter, and love